It is entirely possible to be mentally healthy, AND be as lonesome as hell.
This fu&$ing pandemic separates me from everyone I know and I am a little paranoid (?) ... that's not right, but.
I am a little depressed, too.
I don't really know how to Be mentally stable.
Mary's brother Rick died 11 days ago.
I saw it on FB shortly after opening an account again. I called Kathryn to ask if she had known and when she said yes, I went a little 'off' about no one telling me... (have also sent an email to her since)
OMG - do I see that the older idea that mary and i were really friends was the mistaken one.?
She didn't tell me about any ANY big thing: Mom's death, other brother, !
I am disappointed in myself and I thnk that is the source of the depression..? I don't really know an;ything, bu tI've had enough tonight.
very sad
so, in an effort to be conscious and rational:
Is it that single people are just not near the tops of their coupled friends' lists ?? I do sort of feel like an invisible person these days.
AND everyone I know is staying in like me. They just do so with another human... do they appreciate that?
Depression has been a normal reaction to things for many decades, so it is natural to expect it now. Especially during pandemic.
That does not, necessarily, mean that I should give in to it. It's been a good excuse for over-eating.
article about meaning of Jai Guru Dave, Om
that's all for tonight 1-16-21 this should rightfully be a 'draft' but I (imagine here a string of expletives!)