This article was linked on Facebook this morning:
“The blues is the truth.”
Like all of Jack Kornfield's stuff that I have read, this is excellent and 'right on', as they say.
But it brought up for me, that weird and fairly ferocious anger that I feel in traffic. And more and more, I can notice, breathe, and let go of it, laughing at myself as I move to the right lane and exhale...
But in this article, Kornfield is talking about present situation anger and how to deal with that.
What happens to me in the car is not present stuff. I still don't know for sure what it is. It has to do with control and judgment, and a level of rage that is completely unrelated to cars, driving, or the traffic. I know that because I hear the words in my head, as I begin the internal dialogue that helps me get out of that anger at that time, most of the time. There is cussing, name-calling and screaming, and stamping the foot not on the gas pedal... not pretty. (No, I don't honk at people or flip them off or...)
I like to think it's getting better.
and maybe it is... can't really tell, though.
I also like to think that I don't need to go after it and find out what it is, really. I like this thought A LOT!
There are some real, very old, reasons why the anger could be legitimate...back then...
But, now, these traffic experiences are telling me that I have left some old shit unfinished, and I come in & out of various levels of concern for myself and my continued evolution. Currently, I'm doing very little spiritual reading or listening...think it's time to hear my OWN inner voice.
I suspect she will speak to me on this subject one day.
And meanwhile, Have a great day, unless you have other plans...
