Don't come.
Two have wanted to: one to drive down from Sedona (found out who ratted us out), then the one who wanted to 'come by for her Kate/Joel fix' on the way from Austin to Colorado. Just a tad out of her way...
I'm not sure what that's about. I do know this trip is using a bunch of energy, and I don't seem to have much left for thoughts of entertaining. Even cancelled out on a guy an East Coast friend tried to set up. Strangers at the grocery store and the occasional restaurant server is all I want for now.
Joel doesn't even get it that she is not coming to my little bungalow for awhile. Rehab should start today or tomorrow, hopefully. I think she will like it there; hope she will. There will be TONS more social contact for her there, and people who won't take no for an answer about the therapy.
She's trying her NO at the hospital; yesterday was the first time that I saw her NOT get away with it. Granted, it's tricky to walk with fluid running down your leg or wound vac appliances hanging from your groin. And the last two days, she has done little but sleep. Yesterday, nurse Tony had to stand over her to get her to take some of her pills. In the evening, he mixed a couple of them into her pudding to help get them down. She'd rather not open her eyes at all...But that is mostly, we think, because her system is totally backed up on the 'solids' side...first water retention, now this. They were getting down to some serious high-powered meds when I left last night. Hope it worked; hope I missed it! :)
Also granted, her body has been through a lot. Healing takes time. But using energy begets energy, and she just doesn't want to. I don't understand it. Other than as another part of her nature to sit.
And we can forget about MY suggesting that she move. She is still perfectly capable of making her 'looks-that-speak-volumes'. If I say it, it won't be happening.
I'm a little worried that she is beginning to feel that all this living is just not worth the effort. I wouldn't say that anywhere but here...but I need it out of my head/heart, so you get it here.
Still running. Hope to catch myself one of these evenings....
...and that's not to say I'm totally avoiding ALL my work, as you may have read here...
anyway...her sister just called me and now it's time to get showered and up to the hospital... TTFN
