So, I no longer resist knowing that I am undisciplined.
...............sigh
Even now, I want to explain or minimize or..
I almost typed, "..but I get the ALL the important things done!".
And before it was in my fingers I heard so many of my friends/mentors/sages of all ages saying, "Know thyself, is more important."
Right now, joy is proving hard to feel. Pensive... old habit energy.
Likely to be related to snow, and to the push/pull of this week out of the house (only 7-8 miles away on a pet job for Jim).
I've been thinking, ah...a week in a silent house. Sleep. Just one dependent. Sleep. Feeding two instead of 5. Sleep. :)
Joel does not want me to go - to the point of tears. And that's a rarity for her. I'm still going.
I know, but did not fully realize, that a conversation months ago about a paid week away - regardless of how well you might have thought it all out - does NOT necessarily translate into something that is still true now.
Joel knows how to yank my chains. And often I've responded reacted before I catch on to her. Sifu says Tai Chi will put distance between her trigger and my reaction so that I can decide on a response instead.
In any case, I will be making at least one trip a day into town.
I've been preparing/packing for about 3 days. It's a mini-move. :) Taking my Uke and the books. And the Kindle, of course, and a couple of 'real' books.
I expect to enjoy the time away. And perhaps I can make these remaining days a promise to myself.
For the record: 30 min. on my butt Friday, none on Thursday. Tai chi on Thursday and Saturday, none of either so far today.
ahh... she awakens. TTFN
