Well, OK...here I go again.
I'm finally working with a couple of women who are learning to take some of the High Mesa computer work off my hands! Hallelujah!!!!!!
And it's just in time, because I'm about to start a new adventure. And for this primarily sedentary, separate ol' girl, this will be a really big change.
The ITP is a program created by George Leonard & Michael Murphy, of Esalen fame, (or infamy depending on who you read) and is designed to help individuals make lasting changes in the way we live our lives by blending Heart, Mind, Soul, and Body. We'll do this by committing to various daily practices such as exercise, visualizations, and meditation. And we add an additional critical component of 'community' by meeting weekly to discuss the process and how we're getting thru it all. The whole effort is based on The Life We Are Given, and Mastery.
This may be one of the scariest things I have ever done - but then, I'm very good at 'doing it scared'!
The fear has a lot to do with the thought that this might actually WORK!
OMG.
Daily practice.
daily - as in EVERY day.
daily - as in a 45 minute Kata
daily - as in 30 minutes of aerobic exercise
daily - as in strength training
daily - as in 4 carefully crafted affirmations (yeah, I know, but....this is DIFFERENT!)
daily - as in I become conscious of every morsel I put in my mouth! OMG!!!!! (that's conscious - not necessarily changing anything about 'what' goes in, but...well, you know what happens when you wake up!)
For quite a bit of time I've called myself The Omnicrone. But I don't put that out to many people. I don't know how to 'own' that. With this new practice, I might actually have to step up and prove that I am the omnicrone. What if I actually come to believe that there really IS no space between me and god? What if I actually come to understand that I can channel love to the whole world? What if.....?
I was trying to loose myself from High Mesa so that I could get ALONE. I've been hearing the convent calling for some time. No, not THAT one, just the cave in the hills or something. And now, I've committed to meeting with 15 other folks every week for 6 months, with a re-up coming at the end of that. OMG!
Oh, my God, indeed. That really is my goal: to get past all the old junk that keeps me focused on the 'I'm not worthy to be a little piece of god'. Even when I know better, intellectually, I keep myself at a distance somehow.
So here it is. My chance to own up to my godliness, my 'created in the image of'-ness.
I'm scared.
I'm really vulnerable.
I'm committed.
BTW: the fourth affirmation is one that all participants share - not just us, but every group member ~ you might find it useful, too.
"My entire being is balanced, vital, and healthy."
...and so it is...
