Well, on a purely physical level I guess I can say I practiced my Practice today.
But, I could not keep my mind off the treadmill. Spinning, spinning, spinning... on hospital checklists, and packing checklists, and what will the dogs need, and ouch my tummy hurts, and WTH; this is no kind of practice... and on and on as I can do so well......................
I'm noticing, too, that my belly is tighter all the time. And I don't mean in a good way! And not just this morning. So stuff is up; just not sure what. Control, of course. As I try to let go with one hand, I pick up more stuff with the other. Since now I'm appointment manager for the family, learning balance will be key. That will come from the Practice, as soon as I can make it real.
I'm seriously considering a dose or two of alprazolam. Haven't used it in ages. Is that copping out on the Practice? I don't know that right now. Might have an answer later.
So today I am feeling very UNself-disciplined and very lazy and too busy, also not in a good way.
And just for fun (and to test my ability to stay calm?) I got a water bill with an extra 4650 gallons of water use. Had them re-read it; discovered a leak...bye-bye to $325. The plumber says the Village or R will credit back some of the extra $$ if I present the paid bill...will try that at later today.
Going to have to take time for this Practice out of different parts of the day, too. It works beautifully if I wake at 5:00 or earlier. When I wake later, as I did this morning, I end up feeling that I've raced just to get thru it before the Family wakes. That, basically, kills the Practice before I even get started. And adds to the mind chatter and the tummy aches.
Something will be a little different by the end of today, just don't know what, yet.