Day 1 of 102...that's days to the end of this year (inclusive), and also the days in front of me that I have named for a ... I hesitate to call it a challenge, though it certainly feels like one. But, I prefer to think of it as a new class with a new teacher: me.
I don't know how much writing I will actually do. This new category on my blog is more about giving myself a place to report; to become and remain accountable to myself for how I spend the days. So there will be some sort of post every day...
I won't always be able to post online everyday - maybe. Joel's knee replacement surgery also comes up within these 102 days - October 21st to be precise. But I will journal something somewhere so that I can then record it here.
This class is/will be about teaching myself some self-discipline; about learning self-respect as opposed to ego gratification; about the body/mind connection in Tai Chi as I practice that art - and increase my Practice around that art and my spiritual evolution.
And so that I'm clear: small 'p' practice will be just practice; the repetition of an exercise whatever its nature. Large 'P' practice will refer to that overall picture of the things I do during a day that increase my awareness on any of several levels.
I am still framing my goals for this time. And rethinking that phrase already... 'goals' doesn't feel right, but it will do for now.
The Practice will include some version of a Tai Chi form: either or both of the Yang short form and the 5 Elements form, and some time alone with myself. It probably won't feel like meditation at the beginning; more a sort of exile to a chair! :) but by the end of these 102 days, I will be a regular meditator and will embody the Form in ways that I have not even touched upon or understood before.
I'm also not sure that writing is going to be particularly helpful to me, because I can get so caught up in Ego about the writing itself. I think that there will be some expanded writing because I really can think more clearly about some things as I watch words come out of my fingers. But Ego is easily triggered here, too. Very easily.
So, I don't know yet, how this will look. I am looking forward to a conversation or two or three with valued heart friends who inspire and challenge me to be all that I can be - while NOT becoming a Marine. : )
Thanks for the 100 Days idea, Laura. And thanks, Source, for the fact that there are, indeed, 100 days left in this year.That feels significant, or at least, noteworthy.
Here's to integration and to soaring.
And now to report on Day One:
The introspection began pre-dawn. I woke with new insights inspired by a conversation I had yesterday with Nadette over some mediocre Chinese food and by a question posed by my Tai Chi Sifu, Jim.
I got to look at - again - how easily I can slip into 'old habit energy' about stuff in my life. I can really enjoy creating or expanding drama for myself. Lately it has been my huge resistance to being an alpha dog, and my less than stellar performance in that area, and by a desire to appear like an overly generous and long-suffering wife. Ah, the drama!
Thankfully Joel waits for me when I go off on this sort of binge, and I pretend that most of our friends don't notice. And we communicate better than ever.
Energies are shifting there already. I'm happy to report that I am basically happy; and very happy to KNOW that happiness is largely a matter of decision. Cool.
As for Tai Chi, I spent time on my Skydeck doing two cycles thru the Yang form and one thru the 5 Elements.
I did manage to get up there before the roofer came. But I confess to huge mental distractions caused by my own ...wait for it.. EGO, and by the gazillions of motorcycles running up and down the main street that is only 1 block from my house!
It's a good first day. See you back here tomorrow...