Turns out it's about my heart...not exactly. But my experience here is much different than I expected (notice the word) and much more ..
I'm actually quite happy, and enjoying myself in several ways.
NOTE: Remembering one's hard-soled tai chi shoes is good, but not essential. Can't spin, though, and haven't quite figured out how to 'flow' thru it... Jim'll know.
I'll benefit by the addition of a wheeled conveyance of some kind for all the stuff the not-patient schleps around places. Or maybe it's just THIS non-patient, but I so enjoy being FULLY prepared!
Yes, you're supposed to laugh at that; I'm learning to...
There are emails and texts about Joel and how she is. So I'm not going to chronicle that here.
What is interesting though, is the amount of "oh, poor you" that I'm getting from one or two. Truly weird, but I still have to look at ways I might have invited that. might have... LOL
Shouldn't be surprising, really, when I think about it. So MANY people equate tears with some negative... "oh, poor them"... Cancel/Clear... they will get it in their own time.
I've just been noticing and thinking about the emotional/physical journey I'm on, and am happy about it. Yes, there has been stress. Stress is not necessarily a bad thing, I find. I learn a lot from it. And I'm quicker to notice, and more likely to understand what's happening with me. And while I am 10 years older than the last time we had such a medical journey, I'm also 10 years wiser. I do enjoy the perspective from here.
The weepy days, for example...even while they were happening, I began to understand that it was because I felt free enough to release some pressure that I had not fully understood I was under.
There may be some expansion on this subject...or not. There is a lovely ear of white corn waiting for me...and some sweet butter... hmm...
see ya later.